Thinking about what to do Next ?????

I must keep busy…Even if people don’t believe I feel lonely..They say, “You? Lonely? I don’t believe it! You’re to good looking to pretty to be lonely…to much going for you…” blah blah blah. I just have overwhelming feelings at times, I would say alot. Sometimes it’s hard to look people in the eye. I really don’t feel depressed, just lonely, I can be happy by myself if I am busy…I feel the root of it all is my relationship . I just totally feel comfortable when everything is fine, then I feel like she doesn’t feel the same for me when she doesn’t call or email me anymore. Well I guess I am not little “stubborn” and dont call her either…”butting heads” I dunno. Maybe? Well I started to give myself away more, writing him calling leaving little messages, I mean it takes two in a relationship… Is it good to give myself away and not expect anything in return? Or treat people the way you want them to treat you? Or a little of both? I don’t know I am confused… There is more to this alot more…Too much to write here…Thanks for reading out there whoever you are!

If anybody can help me out to come out of my confusion please do it immediately..........

Regards,

Sugandh.S